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So

2 min read
It's... been a while.
It... almost hurts to log onto this account, still.
I went back and looked through my gallery just now
and... I've changed so much again in such a short amount of time.
It's been a little over a month, and I've been through so much...

I'm in a relationship, and I'm truly truly happy for once in my life with them.
I'm still in therapy but... we're making a lot more progress then we were, I'm... getting along with my mum after some huge things happened and just...

I don't even recognize myself...
maybe a little in my writing, but... nothing seems similar in my art... it doesn't seem like mine, I know I drew it, and I still draw... somewhat similar content but... nothing here is... me.

I've gotten over a lot of things, and come to terms with others.
I'm still struggling but anyone can know who I am now.

bellonotte
:iconbellonotte:

I'm sorry for those I kept in the dark about... some things but...
I'm still not in terms with my entire self yet, but my therapist and my partner are helping immensely.

...see you on the flip side.
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Sorry Fin.

1 min read
Have new account up and running. No deviations but there is an icon and that's good enough.
Note me if you would like it.
Or comment and I will send you a note when I can get to it.
Haven't re-watched everyone- too many.
Haven't un-watched everyone on here. Too many.
Love you all, thank-you for sticking with me through the bullshit I've been putting myself through.
If you don't want to keep up with me. I'll miss you.
Don't think I won't.
Love (and farewell for now);
E
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Sorry cont.

1 min read
Well I've made the new account and will slowly begin the progression over to there.
I'm only giving my new username out if someone wants it...


:saddummy:

But today I'm sick, because of all the stress I managed to wake up and immediately had to go vomit, I could hardly move, and was in tears before I even got to the bathroom.
I'm shaking like crazy and not from the outside cold, which hardly ever effects me, but an inside cold...? I don't know how to explain it, but it feels cold from the inside of my skin, and everything it too bright and I have the screen brightness turned down but that hardly helped and ya...
Shaking, sick to my stomach, intense headache, and physical pain... and I can't sleep it off. I tried the entire weekend and yesterday and it's not going away.
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Sorry

4 min read
I want to start this off by saying it. I am sorry.
You may never see a new piece from me on this account. I have decided to-once more- move on.
There are many reasons I am leaving; but overall I abandon "Escartias" for a new start, something that a simple username change and gallery clean out could not give me.
On this account I have met so many wonderful people, +watched so many talented and diverse artists, and favourited so many amazing pieces of art. All of these are things I may or may not get back.
But this account is also connected to many griefs I have experienced some recent, some not. Fall out, major depressive states, and just flat out stress.
Since Nov 13, 2011 I have grown mentally in strength and maturity, I have shaped into a new person. Some of you have seen this process and some have not, but I am no longer the person I started here as. I no longer have many of the same ideas, and have gained many new values.
With the new account I hope for many things but mainly...? A clean slate. A plce where the emotional baggage of "Escartias" no longer exists.
At this moment I am still going through a lot. My depression is getting worse, and my body is almost always in pain. It may be a while before the new account even exists, and even longer before I have is the way I'd like it.

If you have made it this far in my ramblings; I thank-you.
For now I am at a lose of what more to say, I've stated all I feel I need to.
For those who care for it I am planning on keeping you updated as things keep progressing

Over and out;
E

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-screaming-

3 min read


-shoos you all away and scream some more-

-continues screaming-

-screeeam-

Okay I think I'm done.
But
seriously
quwahut

okay whatever


I'm thinking of changing my username...
thoughts?
Also
I'm trying to pixel some things but so far I've liked nothing and deleted it all.
Hurbalmiger.
I can't art without tablet. -slinks-

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